A line of coloured floppy disks ending in one labelled "zine of Millie issue 30"

zine season finale

So, on Friday I put out zine of Millie issue 30! The final issue of season 3.

a photo of a yellow floppy disc labelled "zine of Millie issue 30", with a caption reading "the wait is over". Four screenshots of different pages of the zine. Text below: zine of millie issue 30 the season finale by millie millennium now available at zine.milliesquilly.com To the right of the text is a Decker Now logo

If you haven't read it yet it's at https://zine.milliesquilly.com/issue30.html

I deliberately decided to release it at the same time as Hollow Knight: Silksong, because all these indie devs were moving their releases away from this time so I thought it would be funny. It was funny. This is maybe the first time I have actually had a planned release date for a zine instead of "when it's done". Which is interesting - essentially it was done several days before release.

I made a bunch of magazine-style ad images in the leadup, so I wanted to put them all here for posterity.

Stacks of floppy discs labelled with issues of zine of Millie. Glowing text over them reads 'Don't you wish your girlfriend was Hot Like Zine?' Text below: zine of millie issue 30 the season finale by millie millennium coming this friday to zine.milliesquilly.com To the right of the text is a Decker Now logo
A pixel art illustration of a woman with purple hair with a side shave wearing an orange jumpsuit, with text over her face reading 'How will her story end? Text below: zine of millie issue 30 the season finale by millie millennium coming this friday to zine.milliesquilly.com To the right of the text is a Decker Now logo
a pixelated line and a dot (representing an eye) with white text reading 'the final fellow'. Text below: zine of millie issue 30 the season finale by millie millennium coming this friday to zine.milliesquilly.com To the right of the text is a Decker Now logo
Black text on a red background reads 'Millie Millennium's About To Make You Feel Things' Text below: zine of millie issue 30 the season finale by millie millennium coming this friday to zine.milliesquilly.com To the right of the text is a Decker Now logo

I sort of have a finality feeling about it. I think in previous issues I'd had the sense of building to something, in particular in terms of the underlying attitude I'm taking towards the work and my audience, and how that's shifted. I mean the "season" thing is arbitrary... I kinda just made it up after hitting 20 issues. And I've been calling this a "season finale". So I could just drop like "hey here's the next issue of Zine of Millie and the premiere of season 4" whenever.

I don't know if I want to do that?

I don't know WHAT I want to do.

I feel like my zine attitude needs something of a reset or shakeup. Honestly, since cohost stopped being around I've felt a lot more... I guess unsure about what community I'm talking to, if I'm even talking to anyone, if I'm getting noticed. Looking at the feedback, like my longtime friends have of course been as supportive as always including saying really nice things to me. On bsky the post has got interactions from... mostly former chosties, and other existing friends. Over on mastodon is... there's a bunch of likes and reposts of the post I made, but not much in the way of comments except for one commenting on the floppy disk image I used? I am not entirely sure if people actually know what it is or just liked a photo of a floppy disk.

I think I wanna keep having an outlet for expression. And making Decker things is a nice way to do that! Posting like on this blog is tbh even more "shouting into the void" than making a zine, and most social media sites are Not It Chief.

Right now I'm thinking I draw a line under the series as it is, maybe take a bit of a break, rethink what it is I'm doing, and then sort of do a reboot of sorts? Like a Brotherhood or a Shippuden, maybe (this is the brotherhood/shippuden/boruto classification of anime followups and it can't be a boruto unless I have a child). I have sort of had reboot thoughts and maybe have played around with some stuff.

I do have another Decker project in mind, a game idea, although it sorta bounced out of mind a bit while I was getting zine ready so we'll see if I can bounce that back in.

Probably I need more of a break from publication before thinking about ANYTHING new. Life is BUSY and like I need some rest.

Maybe email me or message me if you have thoughts though?