The great thing about having your own website

is that you are the arbiter of what goes there and what is appropriate to say. It is a space entirely controlled by you and subject to your whims.

Which means I can write about how I feel like I am fundamentally incapable of correctly socialising and that no matter what I'm doomed to get funny looks and be avoided and whatever the fuck. The safest situation I feel is when I don't try to fit in because why should I go to all that effort to conform to someone's expectations when it doesn't fucking work anyway. "oh why are you sitting quietly and not really talking" because if I talk you'll think I'm weird, next question?

anyway umm there's 2 weeks left in the decker visual novel jam and I am hopeful that I'll be able to finish the game I'm working on in that time. Final week is one I don't have work on so that should help me finish. I'll keep trying to chip away at the task as I have time to though.

After that, back to Next Zine Working On. I think the next zine needs to just be a Get The Thing Out and not worry too much about presentation. Unless I take up blogging a lot more it's my primary expression outlet and I don't wanna have it held back by stuff.