Some thoughts

Turn A Gundam is a goodass show. I'm now halfway through. I'm enjoying it very much.

Interaction with people sometimes tricky but I think ultimately it's just like other people got their weird stuff just like I've got my weird stuff. I've at times described this as "incompatible types of autism" and like none of it is meant personally so like it's ok we just all have our stuff going on huh?

There's definitely like something that feels like it's not quite right or missing at the moment. I mean my goto answer is "I'm touch-starved" with a side of "I've stayed at home for a bunch and not gone out" but like is that all of it? Unclear at this time.

It is REALLY hard to keep my head clear lately, because honestly gestures at the state of the world and like yeah. Maybe like that adds up with the other things to make me feel worse?

OK so you know what's really good? Macross DYRL poster in a frame on my wall. It's so cool looking and brings me joy.

Yeah my inclination is "there is some sort of activity or social engagement that I feel like I'm currently lacking" but I can't easily pinpoint it. For some reason social has felt harder lately. Not sure what's happened, it doesn't entirely seem like it's something that's got worse within me, it feels like an externality or a change in how people relate to me? Really hard to tell.

ok final statement I fucking miss cohost, I can't meet or engage with new people on bluesky, how does that even work I'm just talking to people I already know