fuck I'm 35

as of yesterday, I have aged to 35. This should not bother me AND YET

I think there's like a thing where I'm thinking "this is it, this is what point I reach in life, that's what there is" and like I dunno how to feel about that because like I guess right now I feel way more reclusive than I would like to be, and I am not entirely happy with that. And like there's all the relationship type stuff and all those sorts of things where at this point I am pretty sure it's not really something I want to do, but also like the societal expectations make me fell like I'm missing out?

Look this is all basically solved problems and I will feel better once I get some lunch in me, probably. But I want to put these words out here. They do not need to make sense, I do not owe you or anyone sense, in fact who even are you and why are you reading this?