A post, kinda just arbitrarily sent out into the void or space or whatever

I wound up being awake late today. Dressed up all cute but not going anywhere, after a morning of watching some stuff and napping. Poking and annoying a few friends, dabbling in games a bit, and an evening writing a long rambly article and doing a few drawings for the next zine.

And by "next zine" I mean the finale of the EX series. I think 5 is a good number, like I want the format and vibe to get iterated on enough to be interesting, but not become stale. Then I do something new.

I just wrote a paragraph doing some really bad brain thoughts where I rage against imaginary readers of my zines and this blog. Not sure that's good.

IDK, look maybe lately I am just having trouble with social and desired attention vs actual attention and not really knowing what to do or how to function? I have a lot of "want to talk to people" but not as much "knowing what to say" and sometimes an enthusiastic extrovert can carry me but lately it doesn't seem to work so well.

Still pretty recent that last zine came out. Maybe I'm feeling like it didn't get much notice, or commented on much? So it's felt more "into the void" than usual. Or maybe my brain is broken such that I haven't noticed people's reaction to it as much. The only real measurable metric I have is "nobody's emailed me".

Bouncing around in my head is what to do next. Style-wise I have a few ideas, but also, what if like reinvention or new persona? Shy Catgirl Millie is me but also like really it's a version of me. What if I present myself differently in my work, how do people react to that?

Giving too much away on a public blog post maybe haha. It's a ploy to get you to think about me. Hi, thanks for reading, say hello if you're seeing this ;)